Just a few random thoughts...

Well it is now April, 2009. Jake left today for Tech school in Mississippi for the Air Force. Kif is still flying the friendly sky, Tay murdering the volleyball and Heather being Olivia's momma. Olivia is coming to stay for a few days and I am very excited about that. She is finally saying Bella along with many other things!
I am currently seeing someone. His name is Kevin and this is the longest I have been in a relationship for years. He plays professional softball, and competitive softball. At one time he pitched for the Cincinnati Reds. A long,long time ago he would tell you. He doesn't live close and I hate that. We are lucky to see each other on weekends. We do talk every day sometimes several times, email and the like.
Relationships are hard. Relationships with parents, siblings, kids and significant others.
I think about Jared and Megan a lot and how strong both of them are at this time in their lives. Jared is the best person anyone could have the chance to even know. He is in Afghanistan, and sometimes that is just hard to wrap my head around. Meg is in Alaska with the boys and also an awesome person. Their examples are truly ones to appreciate and strive for.
I was in tears reading about Jared sending Meg perfume and that he picks out and buys shoes for her. Man could any of us be lucky to have half that in our partners. Don't misunderstand the perfume and shoes would be awesome, I am talking about the love and commitment they have.
I use to think after my divorce that Heavenly Father would send me this awesome, priesthood holding man. Well that isn't happening, so I now date non members. It is not the worst thing in the world but I do not kid myself in believing that not being with a priesthood holder is going to be ok. I also do not kid myself in believing that there is one out there for me either.
So I live and learn.
Life is what it is and I am ok with it for now. My kids are healthy and active, contributing members of this world in a positive way. My brother is doing well and safe. My family members in general are doing well and are loved so at the end of the day what else truly matters?